Lemons into Lemonade

"When Life Gives you Lemons Make Lemonade!"

Well that quote should give you a hint into what has been going on in my life...alot of lemons! I am slowly trying to make the lemons into lemonade but one thing I am learning is that I can only take things one step at a time because I can't change the past and can't control the future!

In one week alone...
I have no running car so I am walking everyone or relying others for rides
I got into a fight with my boyfriend and almost lost him
Got some news from the doctor that is not great
Lost my charger for my Laptop
Miserable in my Job
I could keep going on and on but....

I am staying positive with my affrimations and focusing on what I can do not what I can't do!

In this week I have learned that...
People are willing to help someone in need
That I love my boyfriend and need to learn not to take out my frustrations on him
Medicine and knowledge will help me thru this
My boyfriend lent me his laptop so I can continue business things
That each day I am at work I am one day closer to making my business my life

So for every negative there is a positive! Just stay focused on today :)

Out with the Old

“Three Rules of Work: Out of clutter find simplicity; From discord find harmony; In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.”
~Albert Einstein

Clutter has take over my life! It is as simple as that and now is the time for me to take control of this clutter that has taken over my life...

So some people in my life say that I am borderline hoarder because I save everything. I have this idea in my mind that I could end up needing to use, one day going to read or will wear something and just can't give it up EVER! Yes this is a huge problem that I have been slowly working on but as one thing goes away two new thing take its place. So my goal is for the next week I will take a half hour each day and devote it to Clutter Time. Clutter Time will be me re-organizing and de-cluttering my area and life! Each day I will update you on my progress at the end of my blog post. So wish me luck!!

Life is Great

"There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved"

I know that when people see the word love they think of a romantic meaning of love but love can come in so many different forms and from many people. To feel the love and warm affections of another person can lift a person spirit to a whole new level because they know that they are not alone in this world.

So to explain where quote fits into my life....
This past weekend was a HUGE stepping stone in my relationship with my BF because after 8 months of dating I finally met his parents. To get to this point was a long and twisted road that has had some tears and heartbreak along the way but the moments of happiness over took the bad. I felt the love and warm affections of his family the instant I met them.

I was a nervous wreck the few days leading up to the meet the family lunch! I wanted everything to be perfect and was so afraid to fail and make a fool of myself. As my gift to them, I bought a beautiful bouquet of flowers, a nice bottle of wine (the store owner picked it out cause I know NOTHING about wine!) and made a wine bottle bag. I felt that I needed to share my talents with them and show them I was more than a cashier at a local market. Then came the outfit! I couldn't find a dress that suited me at all so the Friday before I bought a pattern and made my dress. It turned out really nice and I was very happy with it. So now for the big day...

Nervous was putting it mildly as I drove up to his house with my hands shaking and butterflies in my stomach. The moment I met his mother I felt this instant warmth and happiness inside of me that made me so happy to have met the woman who created the beautiful man that I love so much. She was just so nice and I don't mean a fake nice but genuinely nice. From that moment, I understood where my BF got his compassion (though it does lack somedays) and caring side. So now for his dad, the man made me laugh which is where my BF gets his joking and carefree attitude. I know that BF will never admit this but in many ways he is like his dad and that is a great thing but the world needs more people that can make someone laugh and smile!

At the family lunch was also BF's brother, how is BF's twin but a few years older! They are so much alike it is scary in ways but he is a sweetheart too. So we all got to know one another and I was quite shocked that I was not really asked to many questions about my life. I really would have figured that my single mom status would have been brought up but it wasn't. (unless they are saving the drilling questions for the next dinner?) By the end of the afternoon, I ate alot of great Italian food, had a great conversation, was told I was coming to other family functions and was floating on Cloud Nine which is where I have been ever since!

I will be eternally grateful for the man that is has entered my life and the parents that have to the time and effort into making him a beautiful, loving man. I hope that there is many more family get together in the future!!

Just One of Those Days

"When things go wrong, you'll find they usually go on getting worse for some time; but when things once start going right they often go on getting better and better.”

Ok so today is one of those days for me! I can't go into much detail on what is occurring but lets just say everything that can go wrong has gone wrong today! It is the most frustrating feeling in the world but I am trying to focus on tomorrow will be better.

To give you some tidbits on what has occurred...
My car is not the nicest in the world but it is enough to get me back in forth to work and other places I need to go. Well every few months or so, something goes wrong with it! It is the most frustrating thing in the world not knowing when and what will brake on it next. So today, as I was on the phone getting some other frustrating news the door decides it won't close! I had to drive home with a broken door until I can figure out how I am going to get it fixed. Everyone around me keeps telling me to get a new(er) car, well if money grew on trees then I would but as a single mom it is not in my budget at the moment.

Second on my list... On Wednesdays the UPS man brings our paychecks. Well we waited and waited and the UPS man didn't bring our paychecks(guaranteed tomorrow)! Well as a person who lives paycheck to paycheck, I was counting on it to come and I would be able to get gas and diapers. So I have just enough money for gas and as long as the Lil One has no problems I have just enough to last me until tomorrow. I hate living check to check but that is my life!

There are a few other things going on but I can't talk about them at the moment but maybe in a future blog...

I mean everyday can't be a bad day so when you are having one of those days just think about how much better tomorrow will be and smile :)

Happily Busy

“The busy man is troubled with but one devil; the idle man by a thousand”

That quote just amazes me because it is so true to my life. The more time I have to just sit idle the more things sit in my head and bother me to the point of no return... This means it gives me time to pick a fight with my BF! (never a good thing for your relationship!) So this past week I have been on the go and when I have time to sit I made sure that it was with the my honey!

My business has really taken on a life of its own with keeping my life busy, busy, busy which I love. I would love for the sales to match the time put into it but I am slowly working on that. I can't even describe the joy and even awe that I feel everytime I finish every single piece that I create. I look at it with amazement that I really created this piece and one day someone will buy it and show others what I created!

I am always the first person to say how shy I am to talk about my own creations but I am slowly coming out of my shell and as my everyday work on my confidence grows so does my ability to believe in myself and my works of art. To me this is what my creations are: not just clothing or accessories but works of art that come from my own 2 hands!

So my advice to all of you is to do what you love and this will help build your confidence in every way! You will love yourself just as much as your hobby or job if you happy everyday!

Productivity Creates Success

"Productivity is never an accident. It is always the result of a commitment to excellence, intelligent planning, and focused effort.”

I will be the first to admit that I have been going through Facebook withdraw BUT I can't believe how much I have gotten accomplished in just 2 days! In these 2 days I have created a new Marissa handbag (similar to this one ), a necklace for my new jewelry line, started a new Marissa handbag and worked on my BF blanket.

Being productive and seeing how much I can accomplish without surfing the internet has been great for my confidence. There has been my moments where I long to just go sit on Facebook and check up on things but I think that this yearning will slowly fade. My projects are long ones so to see myself getting this all done has encouraged me to continue with this momentum everyday!

Happy and Excited....

Parting Ways with Facebook

You know that your addicted to Facebook when:
1. You have a 10 page research paper that is worth half your grade due tomorrow and you find yourself getting distracted by facebook every 5 mins.
2. When talking with your friends someone says a random comment and you all exclaim "facebook quote!"
3. After meeting someone new, you ask if they have a facebook.
4. You check your facebook as soon as you wake up, and right before you go to bed, including the 10 times you check it during the day.
5. You feel like you are missing out on...

As I have mentioned in a previous posting, I have become addicted to facebook...

This addiction to consistently know what is going on in the lives of others and them to know my life has gotten out of control. After a long discussion with BF last night, I realized that the only way to release this addiction is to deactivate my profile. When Facebook affects your relationship, it is time to re-evaluate your priorities!

See this has been an ongoing struggle in my relationship with BF and has been the cause of more than one fight. He feels that I spend any free time on facebook that should be spent with him and he is right. When I am with him and he is doing/watching something that doesn't interest me, I automatically turn to my phone and go on Facebook. Now it has been causing an even larger fight because I feel that if we are in a relationship then his profile should reflect it. Now, I know that the hacker changed his status to widowed but I think that it should be changed back to in a relationship with me. Plus, when we broke up he changed his info to looking for women and dating and this upsets me that it hasn't been changed either. He tells me that it is not a big deal cause he is rarely on facebook and that we know we are together. Well, let me tell you, it does not make me happy at all! If you are with me then you should be proud and want others to know and if facebook doesn't mean anything to you then what is the big deal to change it back!

Ok so now that I am done ranting...I have decided that for the best of my relationship I deactivate my Facebook. I did need to set up a profile so that I can continue to run my fan page for my business but that will be strictly for business only. I know that I will go through my withdraws but hopefully my relationship will improve instead of disintegrate!