I would rather be wrong if it means I can love someone to much instead of being right not loving them enough!
Well my Easter was pretty nice...
Danyella and I went to church and she had her first egg hunt of the day. It was cute because she really did not know what she was doing but once she did it was smooth sailing. Then we went to my parents for lunch and another egg hunt. I love that at 28, I still get a Easter basket from my mom! Next we came home and had a nice Easter dinner with my landlord and her family. Danyella had her last egg hunt and was loving playing with the kids. I love to see her run around and smiling!
My night was supposed to end with us going to Kinda Boyfriend's house. Well we went but didn't stay because he didn't feel good (which was later told to me). I was more than disappointed about only getting to drop off the Easter presents and leave. I guess my disappointment was not well hidden cause when I talked to him later he called me out on my attitude. He says that every Sunday I start a fight with him and I realized that every Sunday I expect something from him and I end up disappointed. So now I am at a point that I need to make the decision of do I
1. Continue to live with the every Sunday disappointment
2. Find a way to get past the Sunday disappointment and not expect anything from him
3. Start over with someone new and hope that I don't have the disappointment again
After I dropped the gifts off, I came home and got quite drunk. I talked to him a bit but the conversation went no where because he doesn't understand (or that is how it seems to me) my disappointment and how I want to spend any moment I can with him. So I texted him If its wrong to want to spend every moment I can with the man I love then I never want to be right!
I know I love him with all my heart but only time will tell what will happen with us. I would spend the rest of my life with him but I don't think he will ever get to that point....
Well my Easter was pretty nice...
Danyella and I went to church and she had her first egg hunt of the day. It was cute because she really did not know what she was doing but once she did it was smooth sailing. Then we went to my parents for lunch and another egg hunt. I love that at 28, I still get a Easter basket from my mom! Next we came home and had a nice Easter dinner with my landlord and her family. Danyella had her last egg hunt and was loving playing with the kids. I love to see her run around and smiling!
My night was supposed to end with us going to Kinda Boyfriend's house. Well we went but didn't stay because he didn't feel good (which was later told to me). I was more than disappointed about only getting to drop off the Easter presents and leave. I guess my disappointment was not well hidden cause when I talked to him later he called me out on my attitude. He says that every Sunday I start a fight with him and I realized that every Sunday I expect something from him and I end up disappointed. So now I am at a point that I need to make the decision of do I
1. Continue to live with the every Sunday disappointment
2. Find a way to get past the Sunday disappointment and not expect anything from him
3. Start over with someone new and hope that I don't have the disappointment again
After I dropped the gifts off, I came home and got quite drunk. I talked to him a bit but the conversation went no where because he doesn't understand (or that is how it seems to me) my disappointment and how I want to spend any moment I can with him. So I texted him If its wrong to want to spend every moment I can with the man I love then I never want to be right!
I know I love him with all my heart but only time will tell what will happen with us. I would spend the rest of my life with him but I don't think he will ever get to that point....
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