Lost in this World

How does one ever feel like they fit into this huge world filled with people of such variety? I know that my title is the Confident Modern Woman but at the moment I feel as far as confident as one can be. My negativity has consumed my body, my mind and my soul and now is the time for me to change all of that into positivity. I know that we cannot control circumstances that happen around us or to us but when we fall we must pick ourselves up and begin to walk again.

The past year and half has been a roller coaster of ups, downs, twists and turns and feels like it is continuing to plummet downward until I can stop it in its tracks. In the past year, I have lost the love of my life, quit my job, moved back into my mother's house and have started college as an adult. Now it is time for me to find my place in this world!

For so long I thought that I wanted to be a fashion designer because I was to short to be a model and had a scar on my leg so I couldn't be an actress. Honestly, I love acting and being in front of people talking. Yes, like anyone I get jitters about being in front of people but then something takes over me and I love what I am doing at that moment. So only a handful of people know this but now I am announcing it to the world.... I am going to major in acting and pursue an acting career.

I do understand that I have a natural talent at design so as I pursue my major and new career, I will continue to support myself thru my art. I love my art but I am not in love with it. It is time that I fall in love with my life again... fall in love with me!